I’ve been told, for over 3 years now, to figure out what it is that I want in life. However, upon reaching an intermediary solution for this question, I find that my current state of being is not being consistent in accomplishing the benchmarks required to attain that which I have outlined as final goals and destinations for my life. This can only mean one thing; either I begin to use my mind to formulate excuses, or I put it to work and create a foundation I can build life upon. This is a side-thought of mine.
There’s been quite a bit on my mind, trying to figure out which way is up in this complicated world. The more I know, the more I realize how few people I know. Along those same lines, it is interesting to notice how I’ve grown and moved along in life, with little interest in getting to know or love many others outside of my immediate family. It’s hard having a connection with a majority of people and I struggle to find the reason to do so. That’s a whole topic in and of itself. Right now, priority is family and close friends. Trust is very hard to come by. There’s no such thing as unconditional love among humans. How can we exercise and master something we will never have a full grasp of? Our best efforts are just that; we can try. Try.
It’s also been very difficult for me to fathom the idea of Mark leaving. It is wonderful that he is going but my heart is breaking at the thought of him leaving. We all have to grow up sometime, right? I’m looking forward to the moment we can all wake up in eternity and share the endless stories we’ve experienced here on this earth.
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